The Entire Human Experience.

… “What do you want your Heaven to be?”
I wanted to hate myself so that I could learn to love myself.  I wanted to grieve and understand loss.  I wanted to keep living and I wanted to cry about it in happiness.  There were many other things that I said to God such as “I want to grow old and wise”.  God granted me my wishes and made me alive again so that I could live the entire human experience on Earth, as it is in Heaven.  To understand suffering and what it is to die.  I wanted to love more than I’ve ever loved before.  He made it so as I awoke the very next day into an Earthly Heaven, being and learning what it truly means to be a human.